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The Beloved Disciple - Part II


Part I


Part II




She never made it in the physical beyond gestation, among the living.    This saved her much heartache and emotional pain.  Time with her family would have been cut short and she would have been emotionally broken, disconnected, lost for the remainder had she lived.  Being that she was a new spirit, destined to be a spiritual guide and healer of the heart, this would have been detrimental to her journey toward fulfilling her purpose.  She was not born into the physical.  She remained, however, with the living in spirit, closely watching over and guiding her earthly mother before reuniting with her in the spiritual.  Emma, named in her heart, was there upon her mother's death, and was there to guide her home.


Emma's earthly mother, Elizabeth, was a bright spirit herself; her light shined in the hearts of many, loved by many and envied by some.  She was loved and she herself loved deeply.  She was a brave, strong woman of faith who took a chance on love with another.   He broken, lost, disconnected.  Her impact on his life would only later be realized upon her death, breaking him further.  He would ache over her throughout his remaining days.  In this life, he would know no other love for he struggled with love, forgiveness and mercy for himself.

Elizabeth sits among Us.  Her spirit far reaching and forever connected with her loved ones that remain.  Emma born again at the turn of another century, is living her life among another earthly family and on her journey to fulfilling her purpose, carrying with her always the light of her first and closely guided by her spirit.


Born to a mother suffering with great heartache at the end of early modern history, his childhood clouded by death, he would later rise to power in the physical.  Two siblings had gone before his birth and yet another, younger went before him forever breaking his mother's heart and darkening his own.  His father moved his family around from place to place, uprooting them from home to home.  Distrustful, broken, detached, and darkened, his internal conflicts soon turned outward.  This young boy who at one point wanted to become a priest, and a creative type, now with a fixation for warfare struggled with discipline of any authority figure.  He rebelled against school teachers, church, his parents; this was especially so of his relationship with his father.

Adolf had ambition and dreamed of becoming an artist, but his desire was thwarted by his father enrolling him to Realschule in Linz, further deepening the unforgiving antagonism he had for his father.  While at school, Adolf, among many of his friends, began to develop German nationalist ideas and this was the beginning of his racially motivated ideology that would later rule nations and people with an iron fist of terror.  He would be remembered by generations to come as yet another face of evil in the physical world.

At pubescence, Adolf's earthly father died and shortly thereafter he left school behind to live a bohemian life for short period before applying to an academy of fine arts.  He was rejected by the academy near the time his earthly mother died. Not returning to the place of her death, he applied again to the arts academy wanting to follow his dream of becoming an artist.  He was rejected the second time; his darkened heart became darker, turning cold.  At the age of 18, moneyless, homeless, Adolf moved into a house for poor working men on Meldemannstrabße.  The culture at the time in this area of the world, known as Vienna, Austria was full of religious prejudice and racism.  Pan-Germanists politicians exploited the rhetoric of virulent antisemitism and they had strong following in corridor where Adolf lived.  This slowly fed the evil growing in his cold heart.

Adolf moved to Munich at the start of what is known today in the modern physical as World War I.  He was found unfit to serve under the Austro-Hungarian Empire which further fanned his hatred towards the empire because of the mixture of races in its army.  He later volunteered to serve in the Bavarian Army as an Austrian citizen which did very little to satisfy his appetite for warfare.  He tried to remain in army work as long as possible beyond the war. He later became an intelligence agent where he continued to learn and network.  He was assigned to infiltrate the German Workers' Party (DAP) and build a populous of antisemitic, nationalist, anti-capitalist, and anti-Marxist thinking soldiers among the army.  The DAP party later became the National Socialist German Workers Party,  or known by the English as the Nazi party.  Adolf used his artistic ability to design the party's banner of a swastika in a white circle on a red background, known around the modern world as a symbol of hate and evil.  

This was the first rung on the climb to political power.  Adolf, even with two stays in prison, managed to bring the Nazi party to full power by establishing the Third Reich and setting the stage for what is known today in the physical as the Great War.  



He lived again during the late Modern period.  His earthly parents were young, hard working class folks.  They did their best, providing and guiding their son.  He was a bright boy, he grew to be a scholar, acquired great knowledge from some of the greatest teachers and institutions in his time.  He lived all his days seeking more knowledge, giving to his career, withholding from those around him.  He never married, fathered no children.  He believed not, lacked faith, followed only the science of his time.  His head always in text books, allowed little room for emotion, feeling, his intuition shrouded.  He thought nothing at all beyond the physical, he was an atheist.  Not through self proclamation of any means, but by his lack of any consideration for spirit.  Not his.  Not divine spirit.  God? Where there is void, darkness falls.  His heart failed and without any fight of spirit, he left the physical.  His soul held waiting for the sum of every year spent in the physical only to return again.

In this life, his intuition would speak loudly, refusing to be ignored.  He would seek the powerful messages that every experience in the physical contains.  Life's lessons, not gotten from a text book.  His own judgements based on experiences and strong intuition would lead him to connect with Christ.  He would poses a stronger sense of self but in relation to the whole.  Holy are thy name.   Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.  

 To be Continued...

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